trout [ 6 ]
Tracy Slaughter: [1 , 2 , 3 ]
  several kinds of muted sadness...
 

perhaps I should have warned you : I'm 
vulnerable to some kind of vertigo
in rooms stretched quite to this
pitch of silence



you should not have stopped me from
tasting remorselessness. you should not
have covered the necessary lusts
of my mouth



in this residual light I realize I don't entirely know your face. here for instance is a 
space for sadism.



even when sober you balance
this paradox : explicit flesh,
insignificant intimacies. give my 
love to all such casual victims



it is also the story of a thousand
songs. desperado features. you sing me
the muffled insolence of two out of 
three. when the moon is sobbing openly
like the silver bitch she is I offer this highschool
brightness : do/be/do, did you put up a fight?



we use words that are always waiting. you came too late after my ninth life and for
your imperial tenderness I never quite cracked enough



several kinds of muted sadness. always
always in my mind



so I'm watching us argue. there should be mirrors. you actually bare your teeth



he leaves a letter suggesting time and space. she returns 
there is no best for both of us



you remain like a dry mouth. a 
sense of deprivation. nevertheless



you were my first lipful of alcohol. sin of 
a parkswing loving the slow death of stolen 
cigarettes. breathlessness is the colour blue.
and all my strength is the bearing of dirt beneath
the obedient flat of my back



your resurrection has cost me
extremity



cause and effect. I notice here that 
I am on my knees. it just happened appears
also she meant nothing to me. the moon
officiates your stale argument of fate. never
the less



the motivations of estrangement. come to
expect these misdirections. discarding all
stories in which I fail to appear



and me. the lowest common denominator. a man in the mirror is giving Medusa head



here I am wearing betrayal like a kid
smudged with the sickness of lipstick. an explanation
of the ugliness of wallpaper. you need not be told : I am drunk. but
this proves useful for practising masochism



dwelling in glass I deliver the home breaker. all day we stay watching its thin bones 
reset



you are the resident regret in my
history. a short synopsis of humiliation. 
tenant in a series of mutilating dreams. nevertheless



but you left no blood for me to play lady. all day
I hear women singing of selling their souls



this finger
on your skin
has an aetiology

index : desperation
red drapes : outbreath
 
 
 
 

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